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Journal Entry: Fri Jan 1, 2010, 9:16 PM

_{So I'm going to be making a tough decision. My parents won't let me stay here unless I pay them money, well I can't. I need to save to move out. So it looks like I'll be living out of my truck until I get enough money to move. And that guy I told you all about. He hasn't helped me at all. But it's going to be so hard for me to tell him I can't be his friend. I'm really going to be alone. If there is one thing that is true that he said is, that you can't trust anyone. So I'm going to trust only myself and care only about myself, I kinda feel like Gaara, lol. I'm also going to try and get a 2nd job, that'll help alot. And I'm sure that some co-workers will let me use their shower once in awhile.

But I just can't be around my family any more, their drinking is a sickness but I can't stand it any more. They'll kick me out any ways if I don't give them money. So I'm going to be canceling my netflix and my internet that way I only have to worry about my cell phone and car insurance. Unless my parents decide to let me stay here until I get the money to move. I am just miserable here. I really do just feel like giving up on everything. I can already feel myself becoming bitter towards others.

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Mood: Suffering
Listening to: Alter Bridge - Watch Over You

Merii Kurisumasu

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 25, 2009, 3:52 PM

Mood: Christmas Spirited
Listening to: Yoko Hikasa - Don't Say Lazy
Reading: Brothers
Watching: Get Backers
Playing: FF7: Crisis Core
Eating: Cinnamon Bears
Drinking: Pepsi

_{I hope everyone had a great Christmas/Kwanza/Hanukkah!!

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1. ~sgatlantisfan11: Torchwood Cast.
2. ~mangamegbe: Zell.
3. ~AshMic: Her and Ganondorf.
4. ~BeybladeBabe: whumped John.
5. ~hakoda-appreciation: Hakoda.
6. *spideegrrl77: DG from Tin Man.
7. ~ShadowandSniper: Kenny from South Park.
8. ~irisxchateaubriand: a landscape sketch.
9. ~Nalana: anything to make her smile.
10. ~misskitty17: Chrono Crusade.

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† Non-Anime Clubs Part 5 †

Journal Entry: Fri Dec 25, 2009, 3:50 PM

Mood: Christmas Spirited
Listening to: Yoko Hikasa - Don't Say Lazy
Reading: Itsudatte My Santa!
Watching: Itsudatte My Santa!
Playing: FF7: Crisis Core
Eating: Ramen
Drinking: Cream Soda

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AGAIN!!!!!

Journal Entry: Tue Dec 22, 2009, 9:13 PM

Mood: Anger

_{Remember when I told you that my got hacked? Well, it got hacked again and made into a group, not that I'm complaing that it's now a group, but it's been hacked again! I've taken it to DA again. Now you can tell who it is that is claiming to be the founder.

EDIT: So the person that is now the founder is not the one who hacked my club. Someone who was claiming to be the founder who was an admin or something gave her the password and took over the club. Which means it was still hacked cuz I did change the password when it was returned to me.

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1. ~sgatlantisfan11: Torchwood Cast.
2. ~mangamegbe: Zell.
3. ~AshMic: Her and Ganondorf.
4. ~BeybladeBabe: whumped John.
5. ~hakoda-appreciation: Hakoda.
6. *spideegrrl77: DG from Tin Man.
7. ~ShadowandSniper: Kenny from South Park.
8. ~irisxchateaubriand: a landscape sketch.
9. ~Nalana: anything to make her smile.
10. ~misskitty17: Chrono Crusade.

Friends x Deviwatchs

♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 1 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 2 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 3 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 4 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 5 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 6 ♥

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Non-Anime Clubs Part 2
Non-Anime Clubs Part 3
Non-Anime Clubs Part 4
Anime Clubs Part 1
Anime Clubs Part 2
Anime Clubs Part 3
Anime Clubs Part 4
Anime Clubs Part 5
Anime Clubs Part 6
Anime Clubs Part 7

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My Clubs Part 3
My Clubs Part 4
My Clubs Part 5

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depressed..

Journal Entry: Sun Dec 20, 2009, 10:12 PM

_{I'm going to tell you the truth. I made a big mistake. But we do that when we love someone right? Some of you know of the guy who screwed me over and abandoned me right? Well, back when I went to yaoi-con I had contacted him to try and get my movies back. So we started talking again, then he said we'd try to be friends again. Then it turned sexual, not personal he said, so I thought I'd be fine with that. He was my first. Then one night he tells me it isn't personal, that we're working towards something. Now his dad is dying and he's with his dad, and he says he'll be back and that we're going to be just friends. All he did was lie to me some more. I know I'm being selfish too, his dad is dying and he always said that if he lost his dad he'd lose it. I'm feeling so depressed, why did I let him back in again if he's just going to screw me over again. The other night at work, which I haven't been going to lately, so I'm hoping I still have my job. Anyway, I collapsed from low blood sugar level from not eating. I feel like just laying here and wasting away. I can feel myself dying inside, becoming emotionless. Is this what bitterness is? I feel like I've lost my purpose, why am I here, and who am I living for if not for myself?

Requests

1. ~sgatlantisfan11: Torchwood Cast.
2. ~mangamegbe: Zell.
3. ~AshMic: Her and Ganondorf.
4. ~BeybladeBabe: whumped John.
5. ~hakoda-appreciation: Hakoda.
6. *spideegrrl77: DG from Tin Man.
7. ~ShadowandSniper: Kenny from South Park.
8. ~irisxchateaubriand: a landscape sketch.
9. ~Nalana: anything to make her smile.
10. ~misskitty17: Chrono Crusade.

Friends x Deviwatchs

♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 1 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 2 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 3 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 4 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 5 ♥
♥ Friends x Deviwatchs Part 6 ♥

Clubs I'm In

Non-Anime Clubs Part 1
Non-Anime Clubs Part 2
Non-Anime Clubs Part 3
Non-Anime Clubs Part 4
Anime Clubs Part 1
Anime Clubs Part 2
Anime Clubs Part 3
Anime Clubs Part 4
Anime Clubs Part 5
Anime Clubs Part 6
Anime Clubs Part 7

My Clubs

My Clubs Part 1
My Clubs Part 2
My Clubs Part 3
My Clubs Part 4
My Clubs Part 5

deviantART Links

My Store
Gifts
100 Theme Challenge
Birthdays
My Characters
Artist of the Month
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Anime Pairings I Ship
Stamp Page 1
Stamp Page 2
Stamp Page 3
Stamp Page 4

Links

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Mood: Suffering
Listening to: Alexi Murdoch - Breathe
Reading: manga
Watching: Kamichu
Playing: Final Fantasy 7: Crisis Core
Eating: Ramen
Drinking: Pepsi

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Journal History

Jan 1, 2010 Homeless
Dec 25, 2009 Merii Kurisumasu
Dec 25, 2009 † Non-Anime Clubs Part 5 †
Dec 22, 2009 AGAIN!!!!!
Dec 20, 2009 depressed..
Dec 5, 2009 Small update.
Dec 5, 2009 † Anime Clubs Part 7 †
Nov 30, 2009 Edit: HELP!!!!
Nov 1, 2009 Return From Yaoi-Con
Oct 30, 2009 Yaoi-con
Oct 23, 2009 ...like a band with just a drummer...
Sep 10, 2009 I hate what I've become....
Aug 12, 2009 Bad things just keep happening....
Jul 16, 2009 Birthday Time!!! :P
Jul 2, 2009 Thinking of Leaving Home
Jun 29, 2009 Heartbreak For Six Seasons
May 27, 2009 Hiatus.
Apr 18, 2009 Happy Birthday to the David's!!!
Apr 10, 2009 I hurt....
Apr 1, 2009 How I lost my heart.....

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