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I've lost everything...

Journal Entry: Wed Mar 18, 2009, 3:09 AM
  • Mood: Anguish
  • Listening to: National Product - Love Me
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I don't have a heart anymore.

Edit: Since you guys wanted to know. Well, I've told some of you about this guy I've liked for about a year and a half now. He's this support manager I work with. And with the rules we aren't allowed to date. But that's least of the problem. He has told me my feelings aren't one-sided that he cares about me a lot more then I think. But today I told him if he'd believe me if I told him the one thing I've been afraid to tell him. He told me not to say it. And I asked if that means he knows what it is.

He says he thinks so. I said that this is going to hurt. He said the trick is to not let it. He says its hard for him. With how hurt he got in his past relationships. So hurt he can't see himself getting married again and I'm pretty sure he doesn't want children again. I'd be willing to give up all that just to be with him. Should I wait for him until he's ready for a relationship or give up.

I'm just in so much pain. It's kinda like losing your faith in something and your whole world crumbles. He's my best friend and he's all I have.




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:iconmzhamma:
What are you walking about? What's wrong; did something happen to you? Hey, if you need someone to talk to, I'll listen...

I hope there is some way I can help.

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I don't want to be one of those people who bug others about their problems but I do want to make sure you are ok. Do you want to talk about it?

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I know I don't know you very well, and I don't talk much. If this is serious, I too can listen. Sometimes it's better, but I can understand if it isn't one of those things that you'd like to talk about.
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:(?

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Don't say that... :cling:
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*_* oh NOES!!! your heart is gone?! that's BAD! OH NOES!!!

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I agree with the others. If somethings wrong, you might feel better to talk about it.

Things may seem bad sometimes but there will always be people that want you to be happy, and if an overwhelming feeling of sadness never goes away, then I would suggest going to see a doctor of something.
Depression can be a real serious problem.
Just hang in there, okay?

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:iconrosedragonfire:
Oh, my. A friend of mine just went through the exact same thing... 0.0

Alright, I'll tell you this. And this is only my opinion.

If it hurts this much then you really need to find out for yourself if he will ever be ready. I don't think you should give up just yet, but instead try and figure it out.

*huggles* I'm rooting for you. X3

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